What Wants To Emerge?

I've been considering just how much life innovates. Life continues to emerge as something the self has never thought of before. Even when our minds are not paying attention, life innovates in every millisecond.

Entropy is the falling apart of all things, all matter becoming disorganized. Life is the opposite. Life is the coming together, the novel forming of new levels of order, new forms emerging. Life innovates continuously. Four billion years of life evolving on earth, and each moment, each of us on the cutting edge of what's next, what's new, what has never been before. And yet, life energy is seen by our minds in the same way many view money energy. Like there's only so much of it, and then its gone. Entropy. Might as well spend it. Might as well consume. Sit around and eat, try to enjoy oneself. Consume until we die. This is so off purpose from the core driving force of life. Imagine having money in your pocket, and instead of thinking that its all going to be gone, you realized that it can generate more. And not just that it can generate more of itself, but that it could create realities that the world has never seen - and out of that creation, more wealth, more money will become available. Then the money looks like it is a seed to plant in such a way that this whole other reality opens up ... realities that generate new more resources, too. Would you simply trade the money for whatever you could consume - or would you then want to plant it in a way that this magic opened up in front of you and showed you a door to even more riches?

Life is not just going after more of itself. Not just rises in population. Life is going for newness, new never before known, never before lived, always with greater complexity and wild new prospects.

Life is the opposite of entropy. It seeks to create new dimensions of order, new levels of integrated diversity, new communications through its intensely divine web.

If relationships are to have a life of their own, they too must not be primarily consumptive. Couples must feel beyond merely what they get from each other, and tune into what wants to emerge through the loving - not to think about it, but simply to feel that this emergence is the purpose and the life of the relationship. It is what life wants to do through this bond. Regardless if what gets created is baby or some kind of other new never yet known wonderous becoming. And if a relationship stops moving with this intent of creating together, then the relationship starts dying.

Consider the View

From inside each of us, our lives, our goings on seem so big. They
can fill up the whole screen and feel all important... they can even
feel like 'life or death'.

Biked up to the top of a ridge today and came across a view of the
entire Monterey bay. Thousands of trees, then vast waters, and
mountains on the other side. And I felt how small this body is, and
got a reference for the size of this life that I call Corinna.
No less beautiful, but somehow, suddenly, filling up almost no
screen at all.

What's amazing to me is not that we can get caught up in our own tiny
lives, but that our consciousness actually has constant access to
consider and look out from orders of being which are THAT much
larger. It would be like one microscopic heart cell suddenly shifting
from the continual business of regulating what goes across it's own
borders, and somehow registering that this whole body and person is
going on.

What I also think that there's nothing really smaller or larger. Its all just a point of view, but magnitudes of order do seem to change the parameters of what's possible. Especially when we release ourselves from ones in which our attention has been caught.

Vision

Today, everything just came together for me. I saw and I saw and I saw. I've been feeling all week, and feeling blind. Last night, I felt as though I were crazy and coming apart into fragments that could never come together. Then I had the thought that the one who was in this could never find her way out. The one who feels lost - that one in me who was loudest in that moment - truly did not know, could not know, her way out. What dawned on me was the thought that there was another one in me who does know. And that the shift could be immediate. Like Samantha Stevens, I could twitch my nose, and I could suddenly be in a different place - a different place in my self. I was unwilling, in that moment, to go there. That one - the lost feeling one - wanted more air time. But after that realization, none of my feeling waves felt crazy. I went to bed sad, but not fragmented. Somehow, even by just acknowledging that there was another one in me who did know, I then subtly knew that there was a way to have all of what I want for myself, rather than to shred my heart into a sacrifice and either/or action.

And when I woke this morning, my awareness was matter-of-fact and even. I knew immediately upon waking that I had moved to that different 'one' in myself. That "I" simply held that there is a way, and because I knew this, I knew that I would find it. Even these thoughts were not running through my mind. My mind was spacious, and instead this was a feeling, a state of being. And as I found my way through the voices inside me - the ones from either side of the previous nights' dilemma coming up - I could feel that they were resolvable. That I could, and in fact was, resolving them.

Later in the day, as I was riding my bike, a vision emerged. A vision so complete, so full, so utterly resolving. It kept coming, and keeps coming. I feel creativity flowing in me in the same way that I have during a few other key junctures of my life. And such a big part of the vision is to be in constant creativity - and living in co-creativity. The vision yields a radically new context, new structure for my living... and maybe most importantly, a new mission, a whole new plan - one that I feel I have been searching for for years.

Now, I need to find out if my husband is willing to turn toward me all the way, and see me as his beloved wife again... anew. To have and to hold, to take responsibility, to love all the way... even if he doesn't know how. Does he want to?

If so, if he is wholeheartedly wanting to make a life with me and just hasn't seen a way, then I've got a new vision to share with him.

The Gift.

The Gift That Comes From Facing the Fear.

When we are willing to turn toward
what we fear
and integrate it into our life,
then we are no longer at the effect of it.
In fact, whatever it is we turned away from,
once we turn toward it,
becomes another gift we bring.

And so it goes that fear loses the power to direct our lives,
and instead our lives become
directed by the gift itself.

-Corinna Bloom

"You could be a schizophrenic, you could be a multiple personality... you could be so many things... but if you can learn to skillfully wield your gift with a little less suppression and repression, if you can be more permissive and open to it, yet somehow skillful with it, it can go pretty far into another realm. And that's what the following is about:

You can find me in two places...both of which are one. Neither of which seems to be remotely connected to other by the usual reckoning. One place you can find me always and forever is in

the radiant suchness of interpenetrating worlds, where I am utterly, quintessentially myself and I never can forget it.

The other place you can find me ... is

wherever the need is very strong, the summons irresistible to serve, to respond, to compassionately witness and behold

what happens to those who are not in this core space that I am in. And who need from me, through me, something which I cannot but give and offer endlessly.

The vital part is to fathom where these two places join.

But that place is off any map, and I rarely fully get it myself. Nonetheless it is the only place to go to have any real idea of what motivates me.

When you inhabit a plane of existence that is in no terms bound up with the times that we're collectively caught in, and when that place is sufficiently encompassing - that is

both

sustains us way deep inside of it

and

casts us forth to intervene and mediate in the vital matters of human welfare in this world

...you just keep bringing this forth...
just keep bringing the prana through...

When I become adept at blowing my own mind, and no longer looking at myself through any customary filter, I begin to be a natural, and to be a gift to any and all who come my way.

What is that gift?

I am so tuned in from my deep center, and I am so far ranging in my ability to accept, embrace and be with whatever, that I can give the pure clearest reflection of all. I can give the purest clearest reflection of all. I can stay with myself utterly and give consummately of everything that I've got and not be depleted.

This is harder to say than it is to do.

The only practice required of me is renunciation.

To let go and just let it happen.

...And I so wish I could teach others how. I long to spread this from its source. But I find over and over again that people are not done with their personal human stories, and they won't quite believe me if I insist that you can do it this way, and it works perfectly.

Nonetheless, sooner or later I must find a path by which I can do this task of making evident the released way of operating as the next phase that will bring people through.

But just to strip away any new age dressings here, let me plainly state that being always and pristinely one way inside is something that

becomes an instinct, that is best sensed as a feeling mode,

really,

as what we do in life ordinarily, when we are not in any further sense hung up on the separatist containers we otherwise believe in.

The next stage in evolution is so quintessentially a given that I feel funny even calling attention to it. The best times for me are when nobody notices anything,

they just bask, in the radiance, receive and absorb,

and then begin to sense for themselves how - 'this is the new way to be for all of us, isn't it?' "

- Elias channeling the '30'

"To you, I would give the world
...cause I feel that when I'm with you,
its all right I know its right,
I know its right.
And the songbirds
keep singing like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
like never before...
...like never before."

Eva Cassidy "Songbird"

Photo by Art Durand at
TransformationalPhotography.com

How Else to Dream It Up

Much talk of and writing on the topic of manifesting comes in the language of 'visualizing'. When books and talk show guests have attempted to teach us how to reach a goal - be it about money, our bodies, our relationships - they usually speak of 'seeing' it the way we want it to be. That could be amazing, and probably is amazing, for those who are primarily visual learners. But what happens if, like me, you are not much of a visualizer? In this case, instead of seeing it the way you want it to be, you could feel it the way you want it to be, or you could also hear it the way you want it to be.

Here's how feeling it the way you want it to be could look. Say that your goal is to have a child. A visual person might see themselves holding a baby. A kinesthetic person, however, might feel themselves holding a baby. How would she do that? One way would be to take a favorite soft blanket and mold it into the shape of an infant, and then carry it around as she tuned into the feeling of holding her infant. For a person who is wired more kinesthetically - which is roughly one in four of us - this would be an avenue of manifestation that would be much more potent and accessible than visualization.

If sound is generally inspiring and mood altering for you, then perhaps you would practice hearing something that you would hear at the point where your goal was reached. Take the baby example. Instead seeing the baby in your life, or feeling her in your arms, you might hear her sounds of joy, or imagine hearing her breathing as it syncs to your own. You might hear yourself talking or singing to her. You will know if the auditory pathway is most key for you if these imaginings come most easily.

For me, the kinesthetic pathway is my preferred method, and I am so glad to have discovered a way to both inspire myself, and to give myself such a tangible sense of what I am creating. Physical experience of my goal is of utmost importance to my ability to focus on what I'm wanting. Want to find out your most effective of manifesting, or focusing on a goal? Think of a goal you have, and try on each method - seeing it, feeling it, and hearing it - and see which one gives you the greatest sense of alignment with your goal.

Context Matters

"As thousands of commuters rushed through a metro station in Washington, D.C. on a cold January morning, a musician stood next to a wall playing his violin, the case at his feet open for tips. He played six Bach pieces for 45 minutes. A few people stopped and listened for a moment, then hurried on their way. A few threw some change or a dollar into the case.
The most attentive listener was a three-year-old boy holding his mother's hand. He wanted to stay and listen, but his mother tugged him along. A few other kids tried to stop, but their parents, too, hustled them.
After 45 minutes, only half a dozen people stopped, and the violinist collected $32. He put his violin away, closed the case, and disappeared into the crowd. No one applauded or thanked him.
Neither did anyone realize the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the world's greatest violin virtuosos. The piece he played was incredibly demanding, and his violin was worth 3.5 million dollars. Days earlier Bell had played to a sold-out crowd in Boston for tickets at $100.
The unlikely concert was sponsored by the Washington Post as a social experiment. Would listeners recognize and appreciate talent and beauty in an unexpected setting? Would they stop from their busyness to feed their spirit? Would their expectations of meager talent override their grasp of greatness?
Blessed are those who have their antennae up for quality and greatness. There is talent, beauty, wonder, and inspiration in your midst right now. To pass it by is to miss the gift. To stop and breathe it in is to be the recipient of a miracle."
- Alan Cohen, http://www.alancohen.com

Thirst For Freedom

I Know The Way You Can Get

I know the way you can get

When you have not had a drink of Love:

Your face hardens,

Your sweet muscles cramp.

Children become concerned

About a strange look that appears in your eyes

Which even begins to worry your own mirror

And nose.

Squirrels and birds sense your sadness

And call an important conference in a tall tree.

They decide which secret code to chant

To help your mind and soul.

Even angels fear that brand of madness

That arrays itself against the world

And throws sharp stones and spears into

The innocent

And into one's self.

O I know the way you can get

If you have not been drinking Love:

You might rip apart

Every sentence your friends and teachers say,

Looking for hidden clauses.

You might weigh every word on a scale

Like a dead fish.

You might pull out a ruler to measure

From every angle in your darkness

The beautiful dimensions of a heart you once

Trusted.

I know the way you can get

If you have not had a drink from Love's

Hands.

That is why all the Great Ones speak of

The vital need

To keep remembering God,

So you will come to know and see Him

As being so Playful

And Wanting,

Just Wanting to help.

That is why Hafiz says:

Bring your cup near me.

For all I care about

Is quenching your thirst for freedom!

All a Sane man can ever care about

Is giving Love!

From: 'I Heard God Laughing - Renderings of Hafiz'

Translated by Daniel Ladinsky